Not going to spend a lot of time on this post, as it is well after 3 AM right now and I am utterly exhausted from what has been a productive, long weekend. I have gotten a whole hell of a lot done, have made sure that everything that I need to start getting myself back on track is set, and just… Yeah, I am trying to take charge of things again. I fell off the wagon in a lot of ways over the past year, and a whole lot of my relationships have suffered because of it. I am not going to say that I am doing a good thing or the right thing by taking control of my life again, but I will say that I am at the very least trying. That is a whole lot more than I have been doing, and that is something which I hope will get me into a better spot moving forward. I want my life to fix itself. I want to be happy again without some qualifier or a million things flooding my head. There are a lot of things that I want, but… I just want to be content with the cards that I have been dealt again. No more binging on things, no more needing to just stretch the truth, none of that… I am what I am, and I need to accept that again. I had, and… Heh, I stopped. Somewhere along the line I stopped, and I need to get that back.
Like I said, I won’t be spending a long time on this one, but I will at least say expect more soon. This blog is finally set up again, and it is easier than before to use and all. I am also confident in me writing in it a lot more again, as I have Ratchet here to bug me on that and to make sure that I stick to it this time. I need that kick in the ass, and he is going to be here to give it to me. I hope at least. But yeah… For now, I will be signing off. But I am back, for good this time, and here to make sure that everything stays kosher in my life. Blogging helped, and it’s time I started reaching out and getting what help I can again.