02Jan 2020 by Sasuke No Comments

Welcome to 2020

Personal, Blog, Friends
So... Here it is, the start of a new decade. I won't try and do much of a recap of the previous one, since frankly... One of the things I am working on for this new decade is not looking so much at the past. Will I still remember it's lessons? Of course, and I will do my best to learn from them and do everything that I can to move on from them, rather than dwelling. I've spent pretty much the latter half of my 20's just focused on the past and not moving forward. I am done with that, and a bit part of 2019 for me was getting over that roadblock for myself. I stuck with therapy, I took time away from cons, and I just spent…
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03Jan 2019 by Sasuke No Comments
2018 In Review

2018 In Review

Blog
So, another year has gone by. I wouldn't call it a good year for me personally either, as it was one of the most challenging years that I have had in a long while. Personally, professionally, spiritually... Everything that could be questioned and broken was. I went from having some hope that the year was going to improve, to having that dashed and being in the lowest place that I have been since I was in the hospital after attempting suicide years ago. It was really, really rough, and I am not out of the woods by a long shot at this point. I am still just barely hanging on as things are, and that is not going to just magically fix itself. I am doing what I can to…
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01May 2018 by Sasuke 1 Comment

Clearing House

Blog, Personal
Well, got a lot of mental housekeeping to do, so I think it is high time I dusted this thing off and wrote for a little while in it. I don't write here as often as I should, nor do I really want to update this thing at a pace that I had years ago; it kind of diluted what I was doing with it. But I do need to get better about using it more than once every few months, only when I am feeling overwhelmed and just kind of need to shout into the ether. That has been... A lot lately, and about a lot of things. There is just so much going on with me that I can't hope to keep it all straight in my head,…
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30Dec 2017 by Sasuke No Comments

2017 Wrap Up

Misc, Blog, Personal
Well in about 24 hours, 2017 will be coming to a close. I have... A lot of feelings about the last 12 months, but the biggest one for me personally is one of failure. I failed to catch up on Patreon, failed to mend a relationship that has been on the rocks for over a year, failed friends who have since moved on from me, and really... Well, I damn near failed myself more than once. It was a really rough year for me personally, and it was one that I would really rather just forget and move on from. I spent a large part of this year in a very dark, bad place mentally that... Well, I know I still have to come back from. I am fighting again,…
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12Jul 2017 by Sasuke 1 Comment

Welp…

Misc, Blog
So, here I am, sitting at the table and writing this. Not comfortably, not happily, just... Sitting and writing this out because it is about time I stopped hiding and came out and said what has been going on for the last couple months of complete and utter radio silence, because that was just unintended and before I knew it, I had just turtled up to the point that I was just gone. It lost me a good friend, it cost me some customers, and... Well, it's kind of just gotten me to the point where just looking at a computer gives me a little anxiety. I feel like I have failed, and have kept failing, and just... Yeah, I am not in a good place at all when it…
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